wasn't so unusual his drinking
most of the afternoon,
so when Ma would send me,
I'd go to the bar & take him out the back.
It was always nip & tuck
he'd wake he'd try to thank me & barf all over the sofa.
of work for years & broke,
he'd booze on credit, do odd jobs for the bill.
Sometime he'd take me along,
the cab of the truck smelling of piss & gasoline & I'd
hang out the window for a whiff of fresh air.
I turned 13,
he taught me how to hold a cue / how to make a perfect bridge with
even more stable
if I'd let my nails grow.
showed me how to grip its knob with just the tips
of my fingers
how to make long, slow, decisive strokes /
how to hit the balls
drive around, from bar to bar, making matches.
y eah, we'd say
coming away with cash
he'd count in his lap if he weren't too drunk
he'd take me to other bars where I'd sit on his knee & pretend to
if a man would buy him a drink
I'd let him touch my breasts
& If he'd give him twenty bucks
I'd go out to the truck
take down my pants